feel good

I somehow feel better today -- its all about doing different stuff. I feel a big change coming on. And I know even if stuff doesnt work out - I will be OK. Its crazy that cindy is getting married. I need to get out and start doing stuff to meet people.

Things Im going to do:

a)Saddleback register - again

b) Go to a yoga class? Art class?

c) Work on work portfolio

d) Look for other jobs LA, cleveland, san fran

e) Break my schedule

f) Soup diet

g) UP thyroid - and iron.

:(

I cant stand being stuck in a dark hole til 5. I am so tired. Am I sick or is this place making me sick? Just buck up, I keep telling myself. Nothing seems worth it.

I know I am just being grouchy. Is it my hormones. Is it candida? Is it the fact that I will never get married, have a family have a good husband that I can rely on? a good career? fuck i have to stop this negativity. I need to remain calm.

I really like this picture Sean took. Reminds me of my passion for ART! :)