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I cant stand being stuck in a dark hole til 5. I am so tired. Am I sick or is this place making me sick? Just buck up, I keep telling myself. Nothing seems worth it.

I know I am just being grouchy. Is it my hormones. Is it candida? Is it the fact that I will never get married, have a family have a good husband that I can rely on? a good career? fuck i have to stop this negativity. I need to remain calm.