LDN day three

Well, I feel wonderful this morning. I think its a lot because of my talk with Annette last night. Man, that woman is talented. And I feel SO good getting stuff off my chest. I go from angry, bitter, not wanting to talk to anyone, stuck in my own head --- to calm, happy, wanting to be engaged with people, and more OUTward thinking. This is huge. Talking is SO beneficial. Its like checking something off the to-do list, then I can move on with life and not be so stressed. Now things like the sign for Eldon dont seem so overwhelming to me.

I feel really calm this morning. I think the LDN is making some things 'worse' for the time being... my eyes hurt, my left knee kills, having some twitching, BUT I think I am waking up with a bit of euphoria. I mean - I washed my car this morning and felt fine (!) I feel like I can just accept life today and actually be at peace with it and happy. I'm trying to think of all the good things Annette said yesterday. One that family members know, and they dont like to be told about their loved ones - like I wouldnt want Sav complaining to me about Paul drinking, even though I know he does to an excess sometimes. That was a great way to look at it. And 2) Annette said that things werent 'good enough' for me - and I knew I deserved better, which is so true. I mean, I am trying to go towards health - and am in a house with drugs? I mean, come on. Also she said he grandma who was married for like 60 years said she knew her husband wouldn't take care of her if she got sick. And how SAD that is! Wow, that hit home. I mean, if I wasnt sick now - I would be at SOME point in my life and you want your life partner to BE THERE for you. I mean, he is just stopped trying.

I think the LDN is working on my gut. It feels good this morning. I am excited to see what other changes happen. I will report them on here!!!

Right now - I just FEEL GOOD. Calm and ready to take on life. Things dont seem so dire or scary or depressing or hard. They just seem OK. I am SO lucky I found Annette. She is amazing. I feel put together and composed and classy.

Oh my tongue looks much better ---- and right now there are less/no ridges on the sides (!!!)

:)