taken advantage of

Wow, what an eye opener to talk to Patrick. I mean it was nothing new, just confirmed how I was feeling. 'Dude he wont get a job' keeps playing over and over in my head. Sucky thing is, that I feel like my life is so empty and unimportant that it stings that much more. That I let this guy openly take advantage of me and then go leave and take the easy route ... He is so naive. Just thinks I would move there when he is so broke, living off his mom. Would it be comfy, sure. Would I not be lonely for a short time, sure. Is it safe? Hell no. Is it smart? Hell no. Would I be proud? Hell no. Would I regret it soon? Probably. What about health insurance? 'Hes going to be my health insurance'. wow. God, please let me meet someone who has a brain in their head and a heart in their chest, please?? Is it that hard? I guess I knew this all along. All the signs are pointing to self-serving... Not cleaning up cat puke. Letting me cook meals for him over and over .. while he stayed at home and wrote or worked on music? WHYYYYY?? I dont understand. Is is because his uncle or whoever told him he'd only flip burgers? Or because his dad was 'famous' in his eyes?